Tinkoo died on the evening of January 8, 2007. He was about one and a half months old.
Wherever he is now, I just want to thank him for loving me so much and so unconditionally and for bringing so much joy to my life, for the short period that he was with me! I also want to say sorry for not being with him when he needed me the most, for I just might have been able to do something to save him! I had gone out of town on a silly errand and he died while I was away. I wish I had not gone at all!
He had not been well for many days and was not responding well to the treatment by a veterinarian that I had been taking him to, for the past few days. I had decided to take him to another doctor and meant to do that on the very day that he died, but I had to go out of town. So, I asked my brother and mother to take him to the same veterinarian, as before, on monday and thought that I would take him to another doctor on tuesday. I had expected him to survive on that doctor's treatment for another day, but unfortunately that was not to be.
I have been contemplating revealing the identity of the veterinarian in question, in this blog entry, but am not sure if that would achieve any purpose. After all, my little Tinkoo is gone and anything I do now will not bring him back to life.
I hope God will soon give me the strength to be able to forgive all the people involved, including my own family members and even myself, who appear responsible right now for not being able to save my beloved Tinkoo!
Posted above, is Tinkoo's last photograph.
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3 comments:
I am so sorry.
I had sparrows and squirrels as pets, die on me… And I think I know how it feels.
Cannot say anymore…
See you Later.
Ra.
Ra | Homepage | 01.09.07 – 1:54 am | #
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If my brother had tried to rush him to another medical facility, he might have received an intravenous Glucose drip and might just have survived…I was not in town and didn’t even know what was happening…only to be informed after he was dead…
Sidhusaaheb | Homepage | 01.09.07 – 12:11 pm | #
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It usually beomes better with time? I know this is a dumb thing to say but I don’t know what else to say.
Mridula | Homepage | 01.09.07 – 1:49 pm | #
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Awwww … Tinkoo’s gone – I’m so sorry – he looks shoo cute in his last pic – well the time was written I guess … dont know wat to say … hopefully you’ll feel better in coming days :>
Asma | Homepage | 01.09.07 – 7:22 pm | #
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Mridula and Asma, I guess both of you are probably right.
Sidhusaaheb | Homepage | 01.10.07 – 6:33 am | #
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I am very sorry for your loss. Tinkoo, I am sure, will continue to live in your heart. The photo in this post is adorable.
deb s. | Homepage | 01.11.07 – 4:50 am | #
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Thanks!
You are right.
Sidhusaaheb | Homepage | 01.11.07 – 7:27 am | #
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Sidhusaaheb! App kahan hein?
shirazi | Homepage | 01.12.07 – 11:05 am | #
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Ji meiN toh yahiN hooN.
Sidhusaaheb | Homepage | 01.12.07 – 12:34 pm | #
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soo who burried tinkoo – I like his name
Asma | Homepage | 01.12.07 – 7:17 pm | #
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Look, you are ALREADY Better !!!
Ra | Homepage | 01.12.07 – 10:39 pm | #
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@Asma: My brother and my mother buried him.
@Rahul: Yes. As I always say, there’s nothing you can’t survive except your own death. There are certain regrets, however, that I am going to have to live with for the rest of my life. I suppose I’ll feel less miserable as time goes by.
Sidhusaaheb | Homepage | 01.13.07 – 7:25 am | #
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To phir nazar kiyonnaheen aatee aap?
shirazi | Homepage | 01.15.07 – 5:12 am | #
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Sorry to hear about Tinkoo. You know why I do not want dog as pet because they have very short life of 10 years. And when they die it really hurts :(
saa | Homepage | 01.15.07 – 10:23 am | #
I am so sorry to hear about Tinkoo. It is an awful feeling to lose or have a pet run away – like my cats. Getting a new pet may help you feel better though!
Cyberkitty | Homepage | 01.15.07 – 12:33 pm | #
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update :P
some after thoughts on tinkooo maybe??
Asma | Homepage | 01.15.07 – 8:00 pm | #
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I’m so sorry to hear about your loss. There be other pets to take his place in your life. Just remember that they can’t his place in your heart. I know it hurts now, but the best thing you can do is go and get you another puppy!
Best Wishes,
Dee
Dee | Homepage | 01.15.07 – 10:14 pm | #
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@Shirazi Sa’ab: Ji…ab nazar aaya?
@Saa: I can understand what you mean to say.
@Cyberkitty: I am not planning to get a new pet, at least at this point of time. I hope your cat will never run away again!
@Asma: I’ll write again soon, though not about Tinkoo perhaps. There’s too much emotion about that subject right now, it seems, and I guess I should wait till I can think more rationally about it.
@Dee: I know that his place in my heart can not be taken by any one or anything else. Thanks for dropping by!
Sidhusaaheb | Homepage | 01.16.07 – 1:24 pm | #
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I am too late to comment here, but we talked that day. I am so so sorry. Tinku was beautiful.Maybe you can take another one in some time, and name him Piggoo. what say, kaka?
shubir | 01.28.07 – 8:57 pm | #
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Tinkoo was my lakht-e-jigar!
Dunno…never loved Piggoo too much…
Sidhusaaheb | Homepage | 01.29.07 – 8:18 am | #
:( So sorry to know abt ur Lakht-e-jigar
Fariha Akhtar | Homepage | 12.21.07 – 8:18 pm | #
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Well, he’s been gone for nearly a year… I feel a little less emotionally upset now. I hope I’ll be able to write more about the time I spent with him, sometime soon.
Sidhusaaheb | Homepage | 12.22.07 – 11:40 am | #
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